Just when I thought I could pay the god damn tuition fees they increased it. Now that is not the best thing to happen but its ok , i ll take it in a positive way and work harder to make more.

I have been working hard but i have been having issues focusing . I have lot of work that needs to be completed in a very short span of time. I’ll have to be working atleast 20 hours a day in the next few days to cover this ground.

I usually am not able to work during college days. I need to get my self in routine which I am seriously failing in. Thanks to msn and fb . But at the end of the day , the people i spend my time talking to help me out when I am in shit.

Talking of shit , I have lately been in a lot of debt. Due to wiring the amount last month. I have been borrowing money from every one I possibly know and I am still in need for more. The debt is around 200$ at the moment. I’ll be able to pay it but not until next 2 weeks. Which is slightly a down side.

That brings me to talk about debt. Debt enables you to do stuff with the money which your future money. The problem is lot of people misuse debt and get into lot of shit. If debt used wisely can enable you to propel your growth exponentially. Around 150 $ have gone into buying sites which according to my analysis should pay off.

Well that was lot of rambling for today .

Stay classy .

PS: Hafiz you are a dick.

Like i said in the earlier posts , I was having serious troubles staying focused and finishing off all the tasks I am supposed to. After thinking a lot about it , I jumped to a conclusion is I need a very detailed ‘To do’ List and may be also a ‘Not to do ‘ list when I am doing tasks from the ‘to do’ list .

I study in a engineering college and have a decent work load. To be honest, its not that much but its still there. The way the semester is planned out , exams just keep coming. Once they start , they don’t stop till the end of the semester. My classes are well spaced out and i usually do get a lot of free time between classes but unfortunately, i have never been able to put it to any use. I also get a decent amount of time in the evening which usually is spent loitering around. Its kinda hard to focus after coming back from college. But, If i wanna reach somewhere now things have to change and they have to change quick.

About my to-do list , All the tasks are divided to suitable sub tasks and similar tasks are grouped together. This enables me to not only complete the task but also not to miss out on the details which I always do. I have also listed down TV and MSN Messenger as my biggest distraction. So i need to make sure , when I am working these things need to be off.

I’ll keep ya folks updated.

After my shitty breakup , i was looking around at people laughing and wondering what made them so happy and I managed to infer few things which I normally wouldn’t .

first is , the lesser you know the happier you are. You look at small kids they know no shit. They don’t know what the mean mother-f*cking world is up to , they don’t care either. All they care about is their toys , food and people around them. They are happy with all what they know.

Similarly , dumb people are happier. People who are slow at stuff and don’t know really posses quality knowledge to go into things deeply. Those people don’t really bother about the consequences of risk they are taking and what their actions mite lead them to. They might screw up but they live for today not really worrying about their future.  Not the most clever approach but they are happy for now at least….

Second is , The lesser you want the happier you are . Most of our distresses are due to the fact we don’t get what we want. But what happens when you don’t want anything. You don’t seek luxuries but are happy with simple needs of life. That is when you attain or grow your self into the feeling of contentment.  It might involve a few compromises but at the end of the day you are happy and that is what matters.

Third is , The joy of small things .  How often have you stopped and watched a bird feeding , or sat by to admire a sunset. I bet it was ages ago. Its cherishing small things in life like this that makes one feel more happy to exist. The way i see it,  Its admiring and cherishing small small things in life that gives a whole new perspective to your identity and existence. You are happier when you know life beautiful and full of little surprises and adventure.

Remember , at the end of the day be who you are. Do what you want to do , do what makes you feel happy( Sensibly… ). At the end of the day life is nothing but a journey to happiness.

Well , its the middle of the night and I needed an outlet to pour out to ( having a blog helps… ) .  Lets talk about defense mechanism today. In basic terms , its the mindset you get into to tackle out all the depression which may be due to a breakup or loss of some one or any other such causes ( be creative with that one… ) .

Lets keep the story short, I really loved this girl once and would fight the world just for her. ( You get the idea ? Trust me , I am not over exaggerating ) .  I chased her for quite a while , thinking she was all worth it. She finally gave in. But we soon had to part out ways because she had trouble staying faithful. Not that I wasn’t a man enough. I just didn’t keep the leash tight. She warned me about it.

Every time I break up after a serious relation, I tend to cocoon my self from the world.  May be, Have this own little world of mine where I am happy and have all I want.  I don’t really like to socialize much during this time. Same happened after her.

I thought , may be if i had enough money/car  I could have spent more time with her and make it work between us. My dads not ‘Warren Buffet’ and the pocket money he was giving me was no way enough for me. The calling , the traveling ….. I wouldn’t be able to meet it. Not like my dad would not give me money. But It just didn’t feel rite.

I knew I had to work out something to meet this gap between ‘demand’ and ‘supply’ . I was too young to get a job. Even if i did manage to get it, it would be really difficult to manage it along with the college. This left me with only one option my ‘sites’ .

I have worked hard since then and come a far way. My sites are worth over  20-30K Aed Alone and I pull in close to average monthly pay alone my self.  I am not good to pay the college fees my self yet , but trust me I soon  will be able to. I am proud of what I have done and I have come far way from where i started.

But it has all come on a cost. I don’t socialize much. All i can talk about is sites and money. Nothing happens in my life. I am a far more duller person then I used to be.  Everything comes on a cost of something.

All this work kept me busy and far from thinking about her ( except few weak moments here and there ) . It went until I met this girl. Things clicked rite away and before I knew we started dating.

She didn’t complain . She said I was perfect for her ( Hard to believe ) . She studies else where and comes down every now and then. But she did mention, I was nothing like she thought her BF to be like. She was a fun loving person and I was a laid back kinda guy who thinks he does not belong to parties.

Its kinda weird without her. We used to speak often initially but now its all coming down. She calls once a while and some days she doesn’t. She’s got her excuses. It kinda hurts.  But its ‘ok’ . The funny part is , some random guy shows up on her facebook and she gets active with him all of a sudden and at my end there is no activity.

Disclaimer: I wasn’t stalking , it just showed up on my dashboard.

The funny-er thing ( remember I spoke of the funny thing previously ) is all those wall post hurt nothing less than bullet. I know its bad but well the issue is , its getting worse.

The Ultra-Real Point of concern is after the first female , I never managed to get out of my cocoon. My world includes My folks , my pals , my girl and my sites topped with lot of food 🙂 . ( Yerp, I have managed to put a few pounds on ) . Seems like the defense mechanism has slowed the pace of my life to bare minimum to the point that my girl might be thinking i am a bore.

Its kinda fucked up state of mind. I don’t know whats going on . I might be losing grip over her but I am gonna get the leash a little tighter and see how it goes.

For now, Peace.

Well …. I bet it wasn’t really that hard , wasn’t it ? I am finally back from Mumbai where i dodged through heavy traffic , Funneled my way in the rain with a big umbrella in my hand , met few amazing people and yes , Assassinated a ton of mosquitoes.

About the mosquitoes thingy, It really was a big deal. Over 40 thousand people were suffering from malaria in mumbai and I was getting over 20 bites a day from the first day I landed. So the probability of me catching malaria or other mosquito transferred disease was pretty high. There was no way I wanted to get malaria on vacation. So i had to be extra careful and fussy about the whole thing. ( though my folks back in india though I was stupid and a little too over exaggerating the mosquitoes issue. )  But that was not the case and I think they’ll never understand…..

But now that I am back , its ramdan and you cant eat out side 🙁  which is kinda shitty. But well atleast it is justified unlike the recent minimum tariff rise by sharjah taxi to 10 AED. Loot the bloody expatriates , you do it pretty well 😐 !

I ve got my college starting after eid , so need to get a lot of my website work done. I hope I’ll be able to finish off all what I started. This month was pretty good revenue wise and should be working hard to make more next month.

I’ll soon get some spicy stories and update this blog 🙂